why can’t life be just about high school?
it’s 6 months left until i graduate. only if i make it pass uan… well i will, i hope i will. and that also means it’s getting closer to college, stepping out to the real world. we have to start preparing for our uni application and strive harder so that we can be accepted into the university that we want. or… what our parents want. to make them proud.
those who already know what major they’re gonna take are so blessed. they’re prepared already and their future are already set. but for those who still have no idea in what to take, which school they’re going to choose, are doomed. want example? me.
i still don’t know what i am going to take. i mean my parents want me to go to a medical school and yes, i said i wanted to but it was because i didn’t have any other options. but biology is not my thing. science isn’t. it’s something i’ve been realizing a few months back. or even perhaps years. i thought maybe i could just go with the flow. i could just take the entrance test, like SIMAK for example, and then be a student at UI, and then continue life as a medical student, then… be a doctor. but then i’m not the type of person who sits in front of the table with text books and study. no i’m not. i’m a totally laid-back person, i want something simpler. and i don’t want 7 years of university being depressed and regretting my decision of going to a medical school. i don’t wanna live 7 years, or even more, of sorrow.
point is: i don’t wanna be a doctor. like really, people who know me well can actually tell that i’m not the doctor type. i wanna take interior design, or something to do with design at least. but i know my parents won’t like it, they won’t agree. and also i’m still uncertain as well with taking design major because i don’t have the skill. i suck at drawing. but i do believe i’ll be happier, though it’s gonna be torturing as well, by going to a design school rather than going to a medical school. i was never prepared to be a doctor.
i don’t know how to say this to my dad, i really don’t. this is so hard. what should i do? :(
naidaaa♥
